I want to work!

Today, of course, as the previous days, another boring day...
I woke up at 9.30am (kebetulan lg M), feed my cats, helping mama, ironing clothes (because there's no maid, so I'm becoming a maid), took a bath, online a moment, then cooked Nasgokar ordered by Ogi.

Everyday I only do those things!

I cannot wait any longer....!!! I want to work immediately!!!

This had been couple of months since I passed the civil servant (PNS, short of Pegawai Negeri Santai Sipil) stated in KPU. I was very excited to be working , but sadly, they said the work can be start in April! Because they are a lot of documents that must be managed in Jakarta and the Surat Keptusan(SK/ Decree) can't issued quickly.

Soooooooooo........ I have to wait for 4 months!

I feel sooooo damn boreedd!! Why have to wait longer as this.. I feel craze at home, and I don't have my own money... I'm too embarrased to ask for money from my parents!
I wanna have my own salary from the work I did! I wanna feel how to "touch" my OWN money~

So, again, I can determine the direction of my life by myself!

I want to taste something new cause I'm currently bored with my life~

*sigh*

Oh waktu..cepatlah engkau berlalu~~

Nightmare

Now I know why I hard to slept last night (selain dari yang byk pikiran..)..

Because when I get to slept.....

I had a nightmare!!

(still thinking what's the meaning of the nightmare...hmm..)

Sensitive

This morning, I said to someone, that I have a blog. Then he said to me that people do have a blog is a person who doesn't have many friends, that have a lot of time at home so that they can write a blog.
Even at that time I am against what he said, (and although he says that as a joke, i know that he loves to make a joke).

But in my heart. I feel like I am the person like he said.
Yes I am lonely.
Yes I do not have many friends.

Yes I often spend more time at my house.
and, of course, have a lot of time to write blog.

Don't you know, that I completely don't like my life, like this. But I do not have many options.

Because my life is already set such as this. I can't fight with this situation.

Maybe, time will come, when I can determine the direction of my life. But i don't know when.

Cause, something that is embedded from beginning, will not be changed simply. After a long time these things have become a habit. I guess.

Don't you know that I actually really hate this ...?